I'm tellin' ya'll it's a self-sabotage that's sappin' my energy
I don't need to get lit, I am my own worst enemy
I'm tryin' to find a balance between planning longterm
And livin' in the moment because hopelessness does not work
Sometimes I feel like I'm writin' the same tracks
'Cause the same problems keep repeatin' and play back
Humiliated 'cause those close just give the same advice
And I keep procrastinatin' but need to make it right
Some suggesting vegan diets and yoga
Or therapy to unpack my mind on a sofa
'Cause I've had a lot o' history and learned a lot o' lessons
But still I'm second guessin' and assessin' several questions
There's different definitions of success and how it's measured
So I'm stressin' on gettin' to where I want, an obsession
But my best friend told me that I'm overthinkin' it
'Cause I'm weighing solutions with excuses and they're infinite

I contemplate my days and lay inside my home
But I still feel like I've yet to even come into my own
I see brand new constellations, but things keep on oscillatin'
So I'm caught between a constant dream or staying lost and aimless

Some evenings in this cramped bedroom are like solitary confinement
Frequent frustrations buried inside me
I'm adulting now, youthfulness slowly stalling out
Put my all into my callin' as a means to calm me down
It's 2 A.M., one of those no sleep nights
Baskin' in the glow of my iPhone screen's light
Notepad app opened as I concentrate
To document my thoughts again but haven't wrote a song for days
And when you're at a loss for the right words to say
You run the risk of a bunch o' tired cliches
Get nothin' done, wake up in the afternoon
Overwhelmed by the day and all the things I have to do
But it's a new attempt to uproot the monotony
Become another author of an augmented odyssey
And honestly, I just wanna be the kind o' guy
That my younger self would look up to and be inspired by

I contemplate my days and lay inside my home
But I still feel like I've yet to even come into my own
I see brand new constellations, but things keep on oscillatin'
So I'm caught between a constant dream or staying lost and aimless

Yeah, I got a lot o' crushes on girls I'll never ask out
Ironic insecurity has got me trapped now
Always felt out of place in the dating scene
Not used to lockin' lips or smearin' someone's Maybelline
I take long walks while everyone is catchin' z's
Or snugglin' their lover, type o' shit I never see
Burnt out while I'm dining at Noodles & Company
Alone with my anxiety, the usual fuckery
But I'm tryin' to look at problems with a practical view
A lot o' people say they don't give a fuck but they actually do
Vulnerabilities with vacuous vibrations
Revamp my vessel, unveil the vivacious
Airin' out my dirty laundry like a clothesline
'Cause there's inspiration in the pain, it's like a goldmine
We can recontextualize the pieces of our lives
Frame a different picture and give it another side

I contemplate my days and lay inside my home
But I still feel like I've yet to even come into my own
I see brand new constellations, but things keep on oscillatin'
So I'm caught between a constant dream or staying lost and aimless