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Wilted Hopes (feat. Cappie)

from A New Age by Christopher Michael Jensen

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Track 16

lyrics

[Cappie]
Oooooooohhhhhhhh
Oooooooohhhhhhhh
Oooooooohhhhhhhh

[Christopher Michael Jensen]
Collect my thoughts 'til my head looks like the home of a hoarder
Obsessed with life's brink and going over the border
'Cause I'm gettin' older, if only these years were movin' slower
So many things I wanna fit in by the closure
But my brain's fried, I'm burnt out and gettin' smoldered
Like the weight that I hold on my shoulders was full of sulfur
Comin' to grips with death like MC Ride
But existential crises got me empty inside
Misty-eyed memories crawl like centipedes in my mind
Analyzin' every moment and what it signified
Went through hard times like the cafe on Riverside
Boggling to fathom where I'll end up when I'm sixty-five
How many metaphors can your mind concoct
To personify the constant grind of the life you've got?
Personal revelations trapped behind the writer's block
Lookin' for a spark to ignite 'em like a lightning rod

[Christopher Michael Jensen & Cappie]
Stunted growth and all these wilted hopes of endless feats, they empty me
My impulses destroyed, anxious to fill the void and set me free, so desperately

[Christopher Michael Jensen]
Now age ain't nothin' but a number, but it's fuckin' up my slumber
'Bout a couple hundred months I spent just hustlin' for somethin'
'Cause when budgets don't get funded and your troubles keep on comin'
Then you wonder if that stuff that you put up with was for nothin'
When you're fantasizin', strivin' to be ballin' like you're Iverson
But you're cryin' in the corner, bawlin' out your eyes instead
Ambitions stallin', homies callin', sayin' try again
Feelin' like you're failin', trailin', fallin' down behind the rest
Ain't what I expected in my early adolescence
Swallowed pride with a bitter pill, becoming acquiescent
Hated mirror images in moments of reflection
Can be barely palpable and never easily accepted
Life lessons lessen when your teachers get to steppin'
Left with nothin' but a bunch o' the same mistakes you keep regrettin'
And when you keep regressin', well, then it begs the question
If there's any future to be forged to map a happy endin'

[Christopher Michael Jensen & Cappie]
Stunted growth and all these wilted hopes of endless feats, they empty me
My impulses destroyed, anxious to fill the void and set me free, so desperately

[Christopher Michael Jensen]
Can't picture fatherhood, don't know if I'll ever want it
I've always felt unfulfilled and I don't know if I've got it
In myself to instill in a seed what it needs
When I can't even satisfy that part of me with my deeds
I'm zonin' out on the daily, tryin' to wrap my head around
Tying the knot one day so I can finally settle down
But my stomach ties up in knots whenever thoughts
Come of walkin' down the aisle and away from what I want
Plus a girl deserves more than I can currently give
And my fluctuating weight's a symbol for how I live
With more ups and downs than the Konami Code
Why do everyday milestones always feel impossible
But when self doubt's breakin' out like a monster
Then I'm brushin' up on bravery, repeating this mantra
Nothin' grows in comfort zones, even plants need the storms
Troubles sewn will come and go, but the persistent reap rewards

[Christopher Michael Jensen & Cappie]
Stunted growth and all these wilted hopes of endless feats, they empty me
My impulses destroyed, anxious to fill the void and set me free, so desperately

[Christopher Michael Jensen]
Stunted growth and all these wilted hopes of endless feats, they empty me
My impulses destroyed, anxious to fill the void and set me free

credits

from A New Age, released April 26, 2017
Written and performed by Christopher Michael Jensen and Camille McCalister

Produced by Andre Mariette

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