1. |
Through The Smoke
03:32
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I remember as a young'n, butterflies in my stomach
Mouth dryin' up and my pulse steadily thumpin'
Before I would get on stage to say somethin'
Runnin' back memorized lines for the hundredth
Time through my mind and go try without stumblin'
A journey for the ages with layers like an onion
Cuttin' to the core and pour tears in abundance
It's who I am as a man, yeah, I love it
I've been buildin' up a resumé, legacy long-lasting
Basking in glory with a hunger like I'm fasting
Keep on killin' it and murdering shows
'Til my recognition's bigger than maternity clothes
I birth a verse, deliver it like a doula
My medulla oblongata got me movin' through the future
A long time comin' since sellin' songs on a Memorex
Started gettin' checks, makin' moves seldom second-guessed
Yes
Every now and then ya gotta get up and just go for broke
When everything is burnin', workin' through the smoke
Shake it off, take the reigns
Lookin' out from day to day
Pushin' on to make your way
From the place where we shiver and chill and winters can kill
A state first built off o' timber and mills
Twenty plus years since I entered the game
I just hope the Twin Cities will remember my name
Forgin' a lane to the fortune and fame
Until my bones decompose as a corpse in a grave
A star like treetops where ornaments hang
Carryin' the torch and the flame through torture and pain
Militant millennial, middle finger to federals
Spittin' as I listen to the beat like a stethoscope
Major misgivin's, but fightin' with fists risen
Hustlin' and bustlin', up against this system
Meticulous, mind of an obsessive
Life's like a gameshow and I am the contestant
Win some, lose some, takin' a chance
Whether or not I got me an ace in my hands
Man
Is there anything left to say, or am I just left speechless?
I'm not sure what's next or when it all ceases
It's been a long time now, but I always come back to
How I first felt puttin' pen to the pad, the emotions I had and everything after
Every now and then ya gotta get up and just go for broke
When everything is burnin', workin' through the smoke
Shake it off, take the reigns
Lookin' out from day to day
Pushin' on to make your way
Every now and then ya gotta get up and just go for broke
When everything is burnin', workin' through the smoke
Shake it off, take the reigns
Lookin' out from day to day
Pushin' on to make your way
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2. |
The Way That It Goes
04:05
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My mother's a social worker, father is a teacher
I make art for scraps, yeah, the author in your speakers
Some call this emo or sad boy rap
I call it introspective musings of a sad boy trapped
Frustrated, don't know how to tell it
Watchin' my weight yo-yo like the cellist
Solitude in a melancholic mood
Evenings repeating of binge-eating all the food
And binge watchin' programs on the cable box
Need better habits to rewrite my fatal flaws
Huggin' on my pillow like it's flesh
Loneliness naggin', feel it billow in my chest
There's no need to be overly cryptic
'Cause before COVID-19 I was socially distant
Neurotic, burnin' out like a comet
Calmin' myself down in attempts to finally solve it
But it's been a challenge, to be honest
Made an upbeat song but it turned depressin'
Ah, man, not again, need to learn my lesson
But I guess that's just the way that it goes, huh?
Just the way that it goes
Yo, I was up 'til dawn just scratchin' my head
Finally threw up my hands and said what had to be said
So, I guess that's just the way that it goes, huh?
Just the way that it goes
I don't believe in divine intervention
It's on me to survive inner tension
But I'm depressed, stressed, and vexed with credit card debt
And insecure fears that have been a large threat
Not to mention gettin' gaslit by the government
Wonderin' if the end-time's comin' in
Yeah, the world keeps spinnin' like rotisserie chicken
But we've been through the wringer and it's visibly different
So take a deep dive in my mind like a bungee
It ain't been the same since they shut down Honey
And it ain't been the same since they closed Fifth Element
Can't imagine ever havin' the same fellowship
Left behind like a MySpace page
Though I made some new friends to crack my top eight
'Cause even when it's ominous, ponderin' the positive
Not gettin' bogged down, caught up with the opposite
Made an upbeat song but it turned depressin'
Ah, man, not again, need to learn my lesson
But I guess that's just the way that it goes, huh?
Just the way that it goes
Yo, I was up 'til dawn just scratchin' my head
Finally threw up my hands and said what had to be said
So, I guess that's just the way that it goes, huh?
Just the way that it goes
Just the way that it goes
Just the way that it goes
Just the way that it goes
Made an upbeat song but it turned depressin'
Ah, man, not again, need to learn my lesson
But I guess that's just the way that it goes, huh?
Just the way that it goes
Yo, I was up 'til dawn just scratchin' my head
Finally threw up my hands and said what had to be said
So, I guess that's just the way that it goes, huh?
Just the way that it goes
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3. |
Mantel Trophies
04:05
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Well, I ain't no joke like Rakim said, nothin' humorous
Never dumb it down, I don't do it for the doofuses
Reachin' new heights, takin' flight like a stewardess
In '86 slipped out the uterus
I win like the '87 Twins, can't quit, too legit
The master of ceremonies, sacred like the Eucharist
But I'm a humanist, studious as schooling is
Studyin' classics like The Blueprint and Cuban Linx
First songs made on the program ACID
Goin' hard since, competition so damn flaccid
'Cause no man's passion matches mine
Yeah, I'll stunt, but never front like I'm last in line
I cut my teeth like oral surgery
Rockin' talent shows and open mics to earn my keep
Dudes used to tear me down like the Metrodome
Now people praisin' me, puttin' me on a pedestal?
I'm feelin' like I'm gonna make it
Feelin' like I gotta come up and just take it
I mean it, I'm feelin' like I got a ways to go
But I've been movin', time to do it and just take control
And I'ma just keep on movin' 'til I can't go
Until I've gotten every trophy on the mantel
I mean it, I'm feelin' like it's time to get what I need
Time to finally realize who I am destined to be
I'm a scribe who vibes off inspiration
That underground heat like incineration in a basement
I kick a written verse similar to furnaces
Drinkin' in the verbiage like thermoses, I thirst for this
Yo, so go and put it in a percolator
I'm a studio rat, but also the exterminator
I don't know, might fuck around and fumigate
Runnin' through so many tracks I started losin' weight
And I ain't even change diets
Man, when it comes to rappin' I'm just a fiend like Bray Wyatt
It's in my blood like Magic with the AIDS virus
Puttin' on a clinic for critics and doubters stay quiet
I got props from Horse and Heather B.
I'm brave-hearted, takin' mine by force offensively
I wanna do it all, then just do it again
Eyes on the prize, see it through to the end
I'm feelin' like I'm gonna make it
Feelin' like I gotta come up and just take it
I mean it, I'm feelin' like I got a ways to go
But I've been movin', time to do it and just take control
And I'ma just keep on movin' 'til I can't go
Until I've gotten every trophy on the mantel
I mean it, I'm feelin' like it's time to get what I need
Time to finally realize who I am destined to be
I'm diggin' deep into my destiny and everything ahead o' me
While wrestling with recipes for successes obsessively
Got a propensity for lyrical density
Mentally overloadin' your sensory like telepathy
Written ammunition, yeah, these words are my weaponry
Been pennin' these songs since the dawn of the 21st century
My verbals vaporize, sprayin' rhymes like crop dusters
I walk up and shut the shit down like Blockbuster
And I know I ain't got a seat at the top yet
But who would have thought that I'd be featured in Complex?
And even share a stage with Raekwon The Chef
And I'm still here, ready to take on the best
So, you better watch what ya sayin', quit playin'
You are out of your league and this is a game you ain't in
'Cause I'm a vet like a doctor for animals
So if ya disrespect, put a sock in your mandible
I'm feelin' like I'm gonna make it
Feelin' like I gotta come up and just take it
I mean it, I'm feelin' like I got a ways to go
But I've been movin', time to do it and just take control
And I'ma just keep on movin' 'til I can't go
Until I've gotten every trophy on the mantel
I mean it, I'm feelin' like it's time to get what I need
Time to finally realize who I am destined to be
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4. |
World Gone Crazy
03:04
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We're at a critical point, looking into the distance
The harrowing horizon, a hideous image
Societal ills, we live with a sickness
It's a cruel planet, an indifferent existence
Crashin' out, no emergency breaks
A real mess made of merciless snakes, mass murders, and rapes
Fascists fixate on furtherin' hate
People gettin' burnt at the stake as we yearn to escape
But I'm lookin' for the light like a solar flare
Colder air heating, depleting off all the polar bears
Earth slowly melting like a popsicle
Unrest unaddressed, shook by what's possible
And I don't wanna wait to be a casualty
Casually complacent, not acting out of apathy
Inhabiting a haven of the heartless, hardships
Dire desolation, deep inside the darkness
And I don't really get it
I don't understand, man, I really just don't get it
But it'll break us if we let it
In this world gone crazy, I'm worried where we're headed
Yo, I don't really get it
I don't understand, man, I really just don't get it
But it'll break us if we let it
In this world gone crazy
Bleak news on the television chyron
Got me nostalgic for a time that's bygone
Air growin' thin, climbin' up a hill to die on
Amidst the abyss and we're tickin' like a time bomb
Managing insanity, the efforts are tireless
Angst adding up, less pluses than minuses
Violence and these viruses seepin' inside our sinuses
The writing's on the wall but scrawled out like hieroglyphs
Hard to understand, we're teetering closer
To the edge, on a ledge, tryin' to keep our composure
Economic uncertainty, inundated infirmaries
Cries for relief, inside of the beast burgeoning
Another song sang as the seasons change
Annihilate naïveté, priorities rearrange
Chest heavin' and stress eatin' as all the people pray
And find solace in all this to have a peaceful day
And I don't really get it
I don't understand, man, I really just don't get it
But it'll break us if we let it
In this world gone crazy, I'm worried where we're headed
Yo, I don't really get it
I don't understand, man, I really just don't get it
But it'll break us if we let it
In this world gone crazy
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5. |
Starter Jackets & Zubaz
04:38
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Ya gotta fall back sometimes to recalibrate
Get smarter, come back even harder, start to salivate
Hungrier, a hustler like Larry Flynt's mag
Making daily operations to secure a very big bag
'Cause I don't want folks thinkin' my story's a joke
If I become middle-aged in my forties and broke
So, you gotta level up in this game like an RPG
And keep on goin' up like that single from Cardi B
Bombin' competition like a kamikaze mission
Steady rockin' off the rhythm while I'm plottin' on my vision
Gotta jockey for position like a Kama Sutra connoisseur
Constantly maneuver to claim the throne like I'm Montezuma
Old school style like Starter jackets and Zubaz
Feel it deep inside like heart attacks and a tumor
I will stop you in your tracks, like the pause button
Mesmerized, mouth open like your jaw's busted
Got enough in my tank and I'm revvin' to go
I'm flyin' by 'em when I go and get my mind right
And you can take it to the bank 'cause I'm settin' the tone
And I am illuminated by the limelight
I got the pedal to the metal, I'm never gonna settle
My head is on a swivel and ready for whatever
Just keep, keep, keep, keep, keep, keep it goin' now
Keep, keep, keep it movin'
I got the feeling of when rappers would record raps to 4-tracks
Put me in the booth and I'll deliver like it's DoorDash
Throw my weight around like the thorax on Snorlax
I'm large and in charge and ready to blaze a warpath
Lyricism in your system like a nerve agent
People strongly reactin' to every word painted
Yeah, my songs are like canvases, droppin' gems like amethyst
Iller than sandwiches with cancerous contaminants
An atheist, but like a Satanist I'm worshipping goats
The greats of all time, recitin' their verses and quotes
I used to keep a cross on me like the flag from Switzerland
Now I dress in all black just to match my Timberlands
I got a lot wiser with a darker demeanor
Just continue raising the stakes while I stay sharp as a cleaver
I'm starting to see what I could truly be to the fullest
And focus on the opportunity as it slowly approaches
Got enough in my tank and I'm revvin' to go
I'm flyin' by 'em when I go and get my mind right
And you can take it to the bank 'cause I'm settin' the tone
And I am illuminated by the limelight
I got the pedal to the metal, I'm never gonna settle
My head is on a swivel and ready for whatever
Just keep, keep, keep, keep, keep, keep it goin' now
Keep, keep, keep it movin'
Sometimes you gotta flex on 'em like a bodybuilder
Risin' from the underground like a zombie thriller
Fans wavin' hands like playin' a theremin
Cheerin' me on and yo, maybe I'm arrogant
But I've paid all my dues and not many are better
On this beat I'm elite like Kenny Omega
Can be a deadly endeavor to grind yourself to the core
But I'm comin' for mine and I will settle the score
Got enough in my tank and I'm revvin' to go
I'm flyin' by 'em when I go and get my mind right
And you can take it to the bank 'cause I'm settin' the tone
And I am illuminated by the limelight
I got the pedal to the metal, I'm never gonna settle
My head is on a swivel and ready for whatever
Just keep, keep, keep, keep, keep, keep it goin' now
Keep, keep, keep it movin'
Got enough in my tank and I'm revvin' to go
I'm flyin' by 'em when I go and get my mind right
And you can take it to the bank 'cause I'm settin' the tone
And I am illuminated by the limelight
I got the pedal to the metal, I'm never gonna settle
My head is on a swivel and ready for whatever
Just keep, keep, keep, keep, keep, keep it goin' now
Keep, keep, keep it movin'
Keep it movin' now
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[Christopher Michael Jensen]
Caught up in the past and my good days prior
Anxious, aimless, and uninspired
Wakin' up late from a long night, tired
Had a bad dream, now I'm caffeine-wired
Many lonely years followin' a fantasy
Bills pilin' up and I don't know how to handle these
Tryin' to flee the dark days like a car chase
Mind playin' tricks on me like I'm Scarface
Maybe I need some medication
Or just more clarity, therapy, meditation
My mom's been in and out the hospital
And really, I've been scared to death, if you wanna know
On the low, some emotions you don't wanna show
Too much to think about, freakin' out, gotta go
But tomorrow is another day
Make it work, whatever the weather, sun or shade
[Christopher Michael Jensen]
Depressed nights are the worst thing
Emotions bottled up until they're bursting
Screamin' at the universe, cursing
Down low, lost in the world, searching
Draped in a blanket, starin' at the ceiling
Hours on end, overwhelmed by your feelings
Spaced out now, nothin' is appealing
Dealing, here hopin' for some healing
[Nur-D]
I be wakin' up, Sunday to Sunday
I try to keep it casual like crushes on the lunch date
Recently I feel like all my dreams are flying far away
And higher than my eyes can see from down here on the runway
And they say that I need to have faith
Fall to winter, spring to summer, hangin' on to Yahweh
Hallelujahs are like kind o' hard to sing
When you're dialin' up to Heaven and you feel you're straight to V.M. on the second ring
But faith is not really the things that you will always see
Sometimes it's just the hope that all your grass can really be
Green just like your neighbor's or maybe something greater
'Cause life is just a crazy girl that's pretty 'til you date her
But maybe crazy's too strong, maybe I am dead wrong
Life is more than lyrics thrown together in a rap song
Or any type of song form
But I'll keep hitting stages 'cause like maybe I will find my happiness after the encore
Yaaaahhhh
[Christopher Michael Jensen]
Depressed nights are the worst thing
Emotions bottled up until they're bursting
Screamin' at the universe, cursing
Down low, lost in the world, searching
Draped in a blanket, starin' at the ceiling
Hours on end, overwhelmed by your feelings
Spaced out now, nothin' is appealing
Dealing, here hopin' for some healing
[Christopher Michael Jensen]
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[Christopher Michael Jensen]
Depressed nights are the worst thing
Emotions bottled up until they're bursting
Screamin' at the universe, cursing
Down low, lost in the world, searching
Draped in a blanket, starin' at the ceiling
Hours on end, overwhelmed by your feelings
Spaced out now, nothin' is appealing
But in time find healing
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Christopher Michael Jensen Minneapolis, Minnesota
Minneapolis hip hop...and I don't stop.
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